Henri Nouwen once wrote, “I kept running around it in large and small circles, looking for someone or something to convince me that I was the beloved.” This is the kind of desperation I’m speaking to. God tells us we’re the beloved.
And yet so often in my life, I run around other things in large or small circles, looking for them, desperately looking for them, to convince me that I’m the beloved. Because the truth is that no rejection or sign of apathy toward a project that came from such a deep place in my own heart could change how God felt about me, how my loved ones felt about me. Or, if I was honest, how I felt about myself.
The joy and fulfillment came in the creating, in the daring to create, day after day after day. It didn’t come in the results of what I had created. Detached from results.
—from Franciscan Media’s Off the Page
with host Stephen Copeland, featuring Brother Greg Cellini, OSF
