St. Francis’ Prayer Before the Crucifix
enlighten the darkness
of my heart.
Give me right faith,
and perfect charity.
Fill me with understanding
that I may fulfill
Enlighten the Darkness of My Heart
Francis’ prayer does not start with “Woe is me” or some dark misery of the soul. Rather it begins focused on the glory and sublime beauty of God.
By just praying the words in a spirit of praise, our hearts grow lighter and we feel swept up into the glorious presence of God! The prayer starts with words of praise! Praise has a way of lifting us out of our self-absorption and anxiety. Praise and thanksgiving help enlighten the darkness of my heart.
For some reason, I’m pleased that Francis uses the word heart, rather than mind, when he prays: “Enlighten the darkness of my heart.” The word mind takes us too much into our heads. And that is not the real St. Francis. Heart is very much St. Francis. Heart suggests the complexities of human love and the mystery of one’s innermost longing–with all its related joys and sorrows.
The heart of Francis was very much attuned to the full mystery of God’s overflowing love. Once, while praying in a solitary place, Francis had a vision of Christ looking at him from the cross with such burning love that “his soul melted,” according to his biographer, St. Bonaventure (1221-1274). We can only believe that, after this soul-melting event, every time Francis prayed before a crucifix, he would re-experience a similar outpouring of God’s incredible love.
Right Faith, Sure Hope and Perfect Charity
When Francis says “right faith,” this somehow evokes this same heart-transforming vision of God’s overflowing love, a love whereby God holds nothing back from us! That’s the kind of right faith that Francis—as well as you and I—are pleading for in this prayer. And does not this right faith—which is the glorious core of God’s total self-giving and self-revelation—enlighten the darkness of our hearts?
We pray with Francis for the “sure hope” that flows from “right faith.” And where does this “sure hope” reveal itself to us more fully than in the Resurrection of Jesus? The disciples literally witnessed sure hope, when the risen Christ appeared to them on that first Easter Sunday. Consider especially the Apostle Thomas in this regard. The risen Jesus so illumined this Apostle’s doubt-darkened heart on that day that Thomas, in adoration, proclaimed without hesitation: “My Lord and my God!”
Just as Francis sees Jesus on the cross handing himself over to Francis and to the whole human family with a total, perfect love, so Francis asks that he may receive the same kind of “perfect charity.” This will enable Francis to respond to God’s love with the same kind of total generosity. Francis asks further for Christ to “fill me with understanding and knowledge that I may fulfill your command.” This “command” is really God’s glorious plan that all God’s children persevere in the love of Christ and some day rise with Christ into God’s loving embrace.
Reflecting on the San Damiano Cross
Early Franciscan documents of the 13th century indicate that the crucifix before which St. Francis was praying (in this prayer) was none other than the famous crucifix hanging in the little chapel of San Damiano, near Assisi. This beloved crucifix, familiar to followers of St. Francis worldwide, is known as the San Damiano Crucifix. It is a great aid for meditation.
If you look closely at the body of Christ, as painted on this cross, you will see that it is neither a bloody body nor one twisted in anguish. Rather his body is quite luminous, as if it were already his risen body, radiating the fullness of God. Instead of a crown of thorns, moreover, Christ’s head is surrounded by a glorious halo. And his body with outstretched arms appears to be ascending to heaven. In short, the image clearly suggests that it represents Jesus rising into glory.
If, indeed, this was the image of Christ which St. Francis was pondering as this prayer arose in his heart, it makes perfectly good sense that Francis would address Jesus as “Most high glorious God!” For all signs of glory are there.
O glorious God of overflowing love, enlighten the darkness of our hearts!
Dear Friar Jim: As I read your article, I was surprised that I was not as concerned as I thought I would be with my accomplishments and failures, but instead I found myself being thankful and grateful for an incredible multitude of experiences—including painful ones—and for the array of people who have come into my life. Joe
Dear Friar Jim: It was very encouraging, and inspires me to live confident of God’s love for us today, and grateful to him for his love. Thank you, too, Friar Jim! Dan
Dear Friar Jim: Your article was timely for me. I have been experiencing a number of regrets that I haven’t accomplished more, or made mistakes. As I relive my life, I’ll try to look through Jesus’ eyes and try to see what has come from those regrets, or what they can teach me now. Diane
A: I received many insightful emails from readers taking the opportunity to reflect on their life’s journey. Thanks to you all. Friar Jim