Peter, A Source of Frustration
Far be it from me to put words into Jesus’ mouth, but I can easily imagine someone asking Jesus, near the end of his ministry, just what he thought about Peter. Peter was the first chosen by Jesus and the leader of the twelve.
I imagine Jesus saying something like, “Peter is the most frustrating person of all the men I have chosen. He never seems to get the point of what I’m all about; he’s always talking before he stops to think of what he is saying. But you know something? I just can’t stop loving that man. He is so sincere and good-hearted.”
As the Gospels frankly describe Peter, he really does seem to be a mass of contradictions! Half way through we have to wonder, How in the world did Jesus ever choose Peter as an apostle, let alone the leader of the group?
List of Peter’s Failures
Just look at Peter. When Peter sees the miracle of the catch of fishes at the very beginning of Jesus’ ministry, Peter cries out, “Lord, depart from me for I am a sinner” (Lk 5:1-11). Actually, Peter has Jesus going in the wrong direction. It would have made more sense for him to say, “Lord, please come to me, for I need you.”
Peter is one of the three privileged apostles to be with Jesus in all his major moments. He is witness to the miracle of Jesus bringing Jairus’ little daughter back to life (Lk 8:41ff). He is present on the Mount of the Transfiguration, where he sees Jesus in a whole powerful and moving experience—yet he immediately talks about building three tents for Jesus, Moses and Elijah (Mk 9:2ff).
Jesus very seriously predicts and describes his approaching passion, and because Jesus’ words contradict Peter’s plans for power, prestige and a glorious overthrow of the enemies of the Jewish people, Peter actually pulls Jesus aside and scolds Jesus. He tells Jesus, in effect, “You don’t know what you are talking about!” (Mk 8:31ff). Peter seems to have things worked out so that if only Jesus would listen him, things would turn out not tragically, with Jesus’ death, but rather, triumphantly, with a great display of power.
At the Last Supper, Peter opposes Jesus when Jesus in all humility comes to wash his feet. “Not mine, Lord. It’s not right for you to do that.” Not long after that, when Jesus speaks of his betrayer and his suffering, Peter with full braggadocio proclaims that “others may deny you, Lord, but I will lay down my life for you” (Lk 22:31ff). It’s then that Jesus predicts his triple denial—which Peter cannot accept. Later in the Garden of Gethsemane Peter can’t even watch an hour with Jesus as he suffers his agony preparing for death. Then, to top it off, Peter denies Jesus three times in the High Priest’s courtyard—facing not an angry crowd, but rather a teenaged servant! Peter even takes an oath swearing that he doesn’t not know Jesus. He committed perjury! When Jesus begins his journey to Calvary, Peter is nowhere to be seen. He hides with the rest of the apostles, lest he be found by Jesus’ enemies.
What is rather startling is that while we always consider Judas’ betrayal of Jesus as the worst sin any human could commit, you could make a good argument that Peter’s was far worse, given Peter’s closeness to Jesus all through his ministry. No apostle is described more, or quoted more, than Peter. Judas is barely mentioned; Peter denied Jesus three times just hours after protesting his bravery!
The Mystery of Jesus’ Love for Sinners
Well, after that litany of terribly grievous failures on the part of Peter, Jesus still forgives him time and time again. As Peter finished his third denial, Jesus was led through the courtyard and Luke tells us touchingly and most simply that “Jesus looked at Peter.” Peter remembered Jesus’ prediction. But Peter could read Jesus’ eyes: “I forgive you Peter. I love you.” And Peter went outside and wept (Lk 22:54ff). He finally realized what he had done. Peter was never demoted as a failure but called to feed the lambs and sheep of Jesus (Jn 21:15ff). The question is why doesn’t Jesus reject Peter?
The answer is simply the mystery of Jesus’ love. His love can see beyond Peter’s sins and failures. Remember, we read that Jesus was a friend of sinners, that sinners crowded around Jesus, rather than runing from him. We can only stand back in awe at Jesus’ love.
The simple but amazing thing is that Jesus seems to use the weak and fragile to do his work. He doesn’t pick saints….he picks fumblers and sinners. And why? Because in the end it is always the power of Jesus and not any human power that accomplishes the work of the Lord.
All of this is a powerful reminder of our relationship with the Lord. It is he who saves us, not we ourselves. He is the one no matter what we have done in the past who always has open arms to receive and to embrace us. Can’t you just hear Peter saying to people who think they are unworthy of God, “Wait! You think you’re sinful! Wait until you hear my story. You can’t imagine how low I sunk, and yet Jesus was always there for me. Never doubt that no matter how bad your past was, Jesus’ love and forgiveness are infinitely greater.
Thanks, Peter, for reminding us of Jesus’ love.
Dear Friar Jack: This past Monday, November 23, 2009, my dog Pretty Boy passed away. He was suffering from arthritis and he was 14 years old. I loved him so much. He was a family member. Pretty Boy had a wonderful personality. He was playful and friendly with people. I asked St. Francis of Assisi to help him and the beloved saint did. While Pretty Boy was leaving me, I leaned gently over his body and I whispered words of love to him. I told him dear St. Francis of Assisi was going to take him, and that he had nothing to fear. I know that great God almighty, the Creator of heaven and earth and of all things, also heard my deepest prayers. Will I ever see Pretty Boy again? Nicholas
A: Dear Nicholas: I’m very sorry to hear of the death of Pretty Boy. You must still feel the pain and loss deeply. And yet your faith in God’s goodness and your admiration for St. Francis as well as your own comforting presence to your beloved pet at the time of his passing must have been a great comfort to Pretty Boy—and to you as well. I hope you have a chance to get a copy of the book, Will I See My Dog in Heaven? because it will answer your question, “Will I Ever See Pretty Boy Again?” and give consolation. I hope you saw the special offer on how to get a signed copy of my book at the end of the E-spiration. Over 40 orders for the book have already been received since the offer. I think you will find many reasons to feel comforted regarding your question when you read the book. Thanks for sharing your experience and your faith with us. Friar Jack
Dear Friar Jack: Thanks for all you do and all the wisdom in your emails!… We have priests tell us [animals] have no souls! I’m a veterinarian and I so believe in the words of [your E-spiration]. Thanks! Greg
A: Dear Greg: I’m sure that you, as a veterinarian, know from up-close experience that animals have souls—maybe not exactly the same kinds of soul as humans have, but beautiful souls none the less. I trust that you also will find your opinion, concerning those who claim animals have no souls, very much validated if you have a chance to read the book.
Let me also remind all readers of Friar Jack that you and your loved ones are in my prayers, even if my schedule does not always allow me to answer personally the many questions that come in. May God give you peace and healing! Friar Jack